Hello again. I should have mentioned in my first post that I have no plans to be a frequent updater. Once a week is probably my limit. Anyway, there is progress to report on the meeting people front. I actually met two men over the last week - one may or may not be a Dom, the other definitely is. The first guy, we shall call him S, I met at a recent library event I attended. He and I are in the same program at school and we have quite a bit of common ground, which is always nice. He seemed very sweet and not totally my type, but quite cute. He is at least worth meeting again and seeing what happens.
As for the other fellow, well my lovelies, he is a very different story. In the category of jumping in head first I decided to take a bit of a risk and join a singles site for people into BDSM and I also searched the local CraigsList postings for that same term to see what was available in my own area. The whole CL thing is a bit sketchy, but I figured it would be OK to give it a try using an alternate e-mail account, just in case. So, the other night I went on and searched and found three ads with some potential, but after careful reading and re-reading I decided to only respond to the one that really struck me. The next day I had a reply and he actually seemed quite normal. Let's call him D, shall we? D and I traded IM contact info two days later and having been IMing for a bit every day since. We've traded pictures and shared some details and so far, so good. He seems to have everything I want in a Dom, but that doesn't mean I am sold. Beyond the weirdness of meeting someone from CL, there is also the age old wisdom of 'too good to be true' to bear in mind. I really like what he has to say and he seems great, but how can you ever really know for sure until you meet someone? We are taking things slow, we haven't even spoken on the phone yet, never mind setting up a meeting. This is his wish as well as mine and I find that reassuring. Last night we IMed for over three hours and it was a bit like being back in high school.
I feel like I am at war with myself now. Rational me versus emotional me. Rational me says 'Hey, you don't even know this guy! He could be a serial rapist or a 50 year old lying jerk! Take your time and keep your plans to meet S again and see where that goes.' Emotional me is yelling back 'JUMP OFF THE CLIFF!!! HEAD FIRST!!! DON'T LOOK, JUST JUMP!!!' Stupid emotional me. This is one of the few times I am glad I am as cynical as I am because at least that means that I won't be too surprised or disappointed when both guys turn out to married or gay or jerks or whatever. They might turn out to be great, but I still have plenty of time to find that out.
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